I write this blog, not to update anyone, but to maybe have us all take a minute to think about all we "have" and don't.
A close friend of mine has just informed me that within the last week they were hospitalized due to an anxiety attack. I feel very certain this issue has been the result of all the other "not well handled" events in their life. This person has taught me a lot over the years, and again today I am blown away by their strength thru this storm. See, this guy is one of those who wished for something, got it, and it has actually been one of the worst moves in regard to his career and financial stability. He regularly tells me he regrets moving for financial reasons, and also can't really "stomach" his new leadership well eother, but really enjoys being near family, and that's what really matters. Now this person is being evicted from their home, moving in w family, and his only comment, "we're okay through it." That comment absolutely blew me away, how could you be so drained that you land yourself in the hospital, hate your current career position, regret your recent move across the country, AND get evicted... all of that to still be okay????? I'll tell you why he can still be okay, he has faith and trust that the Lord has him on this path for a reason. Clearly not a reason he or his family can probably decipher at the current moment, but still, he knows and trusts.
I ask myself this question a LOT, "Do I have COMPLETE trust in the Lord? I always answer "Yes." Times like this make me question so very much about myself. Do I truly have ALL my faith in him. If so, I will not doubt on occassion? Am I really walking WITH the Lord, or am I several steps behind? Would my dis-position still be sunny if I was failing financially, losing my home, and being hospitalized? I regret to say that I can't honestly answer "Yes" to all of these questions. So, to my next question.... Can you? I'm not meaning to be nosy, you don't really have to write back, but really just think about it. I have, and I am ashamed to admit my answers. I have been there, the financial windfall, the NEEDING to move, the anxiety attacks....... biggest difference with me versus my friend. When these things happened to me.... I became so depressed I could barely muster the strength to get out of bed, my way of saving cash was to quit my tithe, and I suddenly didn't have "time" for church.
I pray today not only for my friend who is struggling, but oddly, I pray to be like my friend who is struggling. If he can "struggle" the way he does and still be who he is, then yeah, I want to be that person. Strong, faithful, caring, and most importantly, 100% trusting the Lord. My, what a "struggle" to take part in!
Just a little "food for thought" today.... don't worry, I'll be goofy and not so serious again..... prolly even within the hour!! :)
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Your thoughts make me stop and think. I have a nephew that has terminal cancer, he is in the hospital with pneumonia, his life at this time is very crappy, yet his faith is so strong. How can that be? Well all I can say is that the Lord allows us to go through tough times so we will turn to him. If we didn't need him, what was his purpose of dying on the cross. I have failed God so many times, yet he still loves me. It's like our own children, we may not like everything they do or agree with it, but as a mother I love them unconditional. Just as a parent, God only wants the best for us. If we strive to give 100%, he will be faithful and bless us for it.
I concur! Please keep this friend of mine in your prayers Connie, I would really appreciate it and I know he and his family would also.
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